Getting My Warm Weather Groove Back

I'm finally coming out of hibernation! =) As we know its cold where I live 60% or more of the year. I like to be warm, hot even is preferable. So, when it gets cold out I stay in the house unless it's someone's birthday or other special occasion. But it's finally warming up! And after 2 trips to warm locations in the past 2 weeks, I'm ready to be out and about!!

Now with this I've been slowly but surely getting out more and more. Well I think I took things a little too far, because I injured/aggravated my back, and I already had a controlled back issue. Yea, it's not so controlled now thanks to me =/ So I had to stop my training sessions at my gym, so I can take weeks of physical therapy in order to prevent back surgery. My surgeon was basically like either you do well in PT or I'll be performing surgery on you this late Spring. Needless to say I told my Physical Therapist to go hard, because I DO NOT want to have any type of surgery on my spine...smh...nosir!

So while that should've slowed me down immensely I've just decided to continue to pop my prescribed meds every morning, carry Ibuprofen, and do everything my therapist tells me to. After all it is warming up, I just have to make sure I'm not out in stilettos all the time and I should be good ;-)

Sweating the Small Stuff...

I just had a moment of clarity.

A lot of people that know me extremely well, especially my inner female circle, know that I tend to be rather cool, calm and collected when it comes to guys. It takes a lot to phase me, and I don't let a guy into my heart for a very long time. Part of that is I don't want to be hurt, and part of it is it's just not in my personality to be the gyrl all hyped up about a guy.

I don't like PDAs. I'm not an I need to see this dude every day and be on the phone all night type of gyrl. In relationships, I'm often the one saying as long as we have a communication everyday (goodnight text/email will suffice), we only need to have a thorough conversation or visit once a week, unless the need arises to do more. I'm pretty low maintenance in terms of what I need emotionally from a guy I'm involved with, once I feel secure of my position in his life. I'm not the jealous type, I have healthy male friendships and I have no problem with him having healthy female friendships.

All of that means I'm typically in relationships/situations where there's very little drama, stress, and arguments. Typically if I'm upset at my mate something MAJOR has occured, &/or I feel I'm being disrespected.

On the flip side, this also means I don't sweat the small stuff. Now the problem with that is I either end up internally rationalizing whatever small thing occured, or I try to just forget it happened. While some may say it's slightly passive agressive of me to behave like this, I just don't have the energy to argue/discuss something small enough for it to not affect my behavior or feelings towards my mate.

Well one of the guy's I've been seeing for a few months that's pretty much my favorite non platonic guy to spend time with has been PERFECT in all the major areas people tend to care about. He treats me WELL whenever we're together. He's vocal about his feelings, there's no guessing game. We have AMAZING all-around chemistry. We also have the same values. BUT, there's been something small that he's not been so perfect in/about.

Everytime the small thing happens, I pull a typical me and I don't say anything and just know I'll be over it in the morning. Well the small thing has occured in different forms a few times lately. And needless to say I've been doing a lot of internalizing, and of course with that comes me rationalizing his behavior. I was on the phone with one of my best friends telling her for the first time about the situation, and him (I actually like this guy, which is another rarity for me, and I tend to keep those situations to myself until I can tell if it'll end well), and I found myself getting mad. I realized this was no longer a small issue with me. This issue had ballooned from "I don't sweat the small stuff" to this is making me wonder if I should still see him.

I finally built up the courage to call him (yes courage, because I hadn't decided if I was ready & willing to let him go if the conversation didn't go as well as I wanted it to go), and found that he was EXTREMELY apologetic, and said he'd do better. I'd gone through this long period of simmering about his behavior, and semi stressing about it, when all it took was for me to STOP internalizing it and just say something, for it to be fixed.

So I'm not saying I will stop not sweating the small stuff, but I am saying I will do a better job of realizing when something is no longer "small" and has become an issue I need to discuss. I shouldn't let something eat me up inside in a friendship. It's not fair to that person, and it's not fair to me.

Life Plan

Do you ever wonder if you're doing what you're supposed to be doing? Are the steps/actions you're making and taking now the correct ones for you to maximize your experiences in life?

Every year I think about my life plan, and I evaluate whether or not it's what God wants for me, I'm still on the right path, there's been a stumbling block, and I can tweek it to make it better.

Right now I'm in a new stage of life. Everyday I have the opportunity to only do the things I choose to do. I have no one telling me what I have to do, or when I have to do it. I take time every day to do something that I feel passionate about. For those that know me, I'm passionate about a lot ;-) So as you can imagine I'm more busy now than I was working a full time job, a part time job, and going to school!

I'm going to try and write once a week at least about my new "passionate project". There will be some projects that are ongoing because of course Rome wasn't built in a day! ;-) Can wait to hear you all's input!

- Ms. Sassy

God is Pro-Life?

I was recently in my car and I saw a bumper sticker that said "God is ProLife". Of course this was a bumper sticker about abortion. The slogan got me to thinking...is God really Pro-Life or is He Pro-Choice?

I sat their pondering this for about 5 mins (yea I was in traffic), and I came to the conclusion that God is Pro-Choice. He hopes we make the right decision that fits into his plan for Christian living, but God let's us choose the paths we will take. It's kind of like the reason we aren't perfect. God gives us free will. So, if he gives us free will in every other aspect of our lives why would he not let us make choices in regards to abortion?

What do you all think?

Uh oh.....clocks are ticking

So in the past 2 weeks I have had 6 conversations with 6 different women about their unease with not being engaged or married. Only one of them is over 30. What in the world is going on? Since when do people in their mid 20s start exasperating about marriage? I've heard of wanting a baby at this age but wow. They aren't even worried about kids that much. It's all about that lifelong partner.

Female #1 - Everywhere I go I see women my age with rings. It depresses me.
Me - How do you know they're your age?

Female #2 - OMGosh if I don't meet my husband this year it's all downhill.
Me - Ummm will you be 30 next yr?
Female #2 - No.

Female #3 - I feel like all my friends are getting married =(
Me - Am I your friend? Am I getting married? Am I worried about it?

Female #4 - OMGosh I'm never going to be married, no one will want me.
Me - Ummm aren't you extremely attractive, don't you have no kids, you have multiple degrees, extremely loving, and you're not crazy? What makes you think this?

This is the kind of stuff I'm hearing... is it the weather? Has winter gone on for too long? What gives?

To move or not to move... that is the question.

YES WE DID!